You've Waited So Long For Me To Say I Love You,But When I Go To ,You Walk Away Saying It Was All My Fault.........

The only thing i really want to understand is ,why i am the way i am?I understand the legends(I've done enough research to understand),I've read just about all the scientific,or pseudo-science,papers on it.But i still don't understand why it has to be me.
According to the legends,it skips generations.My dad(not like i knew anything about him,he left right after he found out i was a boy)wasn't a werewolf,but my grandfather was.He went insane after he lashed out on my grandmother and killed himself.He ,like in the legend, drove a stake through his heart.It only works,though,when it forced through with the strength of a werewolf.Or something stronger.But besides that,why couldn't it have skipped my grandfather and went to my dad?I have to go through everything on my own.I have to learn how to phase back on my own(lets just say I was stuck for about a week after my first and only girlfriend broke up with me),how to calm down my emotions to a dull pain in my head.
I'll never understand but I just hope i can finally get close to someone enough to have them help me with this.I just wish someone would love me enough to not care what I am...............................

Part 2 :
But what I want, I don’t always get. No matter what I do , girls just wont stay away. It just seem to be something about me that pulls them to me even when I don’t want them to be. I cant just be blunt about why they cant be around me because honestly what girl would believe you if I said ,”Hey. I really like you, but I’m a werewolf and I’m afraid I would hurt you. so you should get a restraining order against me and you’ll be fine. It was nice knowing you.” seriously. I mean don’t get me wrong, I really like some girls and I would really like to get closer to them but. Yeah the whole werewolf kind of gets in the way………..
Most people get it…well the people who know get it. O_0. There are just things I really wish I could do that most teenagers could do. Like hang out with normal friends, go to the movies, worry about tomorrows geometry test, be afraid of your parents finding out you were out super late that night last week. But having to suppress majority of your emotions to keep the jerk of a guy that sits next to you from losing his arm. And probably every other body part that he has. so yeah ,having all these powers comes with a lot of downfalls…………
Side note, I don’t know why I keep going back to this one night .I remember finding this person laying in the park and I thought he was already dead. so being the nice guy (well werewolf=[ )I am, I picked him up and laid him out in an alley. He was bleeding so much, I knew he was definitely dead. But when I set him down, he started moving and after a few minutes he opened his eyes. I felt sorry for him, knowing that in mere moments he was going to die. But for some reason I knew something else was coming into play. He started to stand and I noticed all the blood I felt was gone as if it had never been there. As he moved I understood something ,he was different like me. I tried to talk to him and realized I was still in werewolf form ,and leap away feeling retarded…………

Waiting for your answer, you lost me to my emotions

Ferro:
That feeling of absolute and complete freedom is great. the release of that anger and other stronger emotions is almost a soothing curse. it’s that freedom that misconstrues everything. When you get the chance to understand that feeling you understand the problem. Knowing that if I ever fall in love, I could lose that person to my OTHER half. I’m sorry I’m just thinking out loud.
I’m Ferro. I’m not that hard stud of a guy all of my friends are. I’m that sweet guy every girl looks for but never notices. And I’m happy they don’t. you see ,just like my friends ,I’m a werewolf. not like the feral movie versions, but they are pretty close. Yes we change under extreme emotion. Yes we are not normal by any standards.
first off ,we are huge in size, muscle wise. I’m 5’10” and 185 pounds. I look like I’m 21 years old ,when in reality I’m only 16.I can run just as fast as an Olympic sprinter. I can jump higher then any basketball player you can think of. I can do anything physically and mentally perfectly. But with everything, there has to be a catch.
Changing is so……….so……euphoric. I love it. That feeling of losing control and not having to feel is so exhilarating. but with that comes the fact that knowing the animal takes over and I can’t control that. that’s why I’m happy girls don’t notice me. I don’t know how I would live with myself If I hurt someone…………………………..

When it happens ,it will happen fast. Stay on your toes and wait to hear from the three new angels next time………….

I Tried To Write You,But The Eraser Wouldn't Let Me Say "I Love You"...........

Fallen:
The return of the lost souls on Earth is harder then these fallen angels make it out to be. The spiritual energies remind me of how strong I used to be. To bad I lost it all…….but I cant think like that right now. These people, spirits if you want to be technical, need my help. I’m like there guide to were they need to be. But at the same time ,I am their protector demons have the ability, like the angels, to take the souls and make them into minions of hell and we don’t need more demons, now more then ever. And I can honestly say ,Earthly manners are rubbing off on me. The other angels told me pretty soon only my thoughts will stay the same. My speech will change, my stature, and my clothing apparently. I just hope I still retain my memories. The powers were supposed to take those along with my original wings ,but somehow. I remember everything. They say its uncommon but not unheard of………..

The only thing I truly hope for is that I keep my emotions. Before I was so numb to everything. I didn’t even care when the werewolf was over me. It didn’t even phase me. I just hope that my feeling for Icarus stay the same. Along with my feelings for my “family”. I never want to lose that feeling of being wanted. They may not be related to me and they might. But that doesn’t even matter anymore. I just hope I retain those if I don’t remember anything else. But back to everything else. My new wings are better then I thought they would ever be. Because they’re wings from an ancient spell that let angels walk among the humans without them noticing. So they can easily pull tightly enough to my back, that I can wear any shirt I want and you wouldn’t be able to tell I had wings. And even though I’m used to carrying my old blade. The two true samurai blades that they have given me have worked great. It’s harder to hold two blades but I’ll get used to it.

And for those still trying to figure out were I’m at, let me give you a hint. I’m in the Western hemisphere.

O_o

Well its time to continue my quest, on how in Hell(not literally, hopefully) I’m going to save your planet and get back to heaven. If that’s what I want in the end………..

When it happen, it will happen fast. Stay on your toes and wait to hear from Ferro for the first time………..

chapter 1/section 5

Icarus:

i cant take much more of this.he is gone and no one seems to care.not even Jasper seems to notice how depressed and the feelings of heartbreak written on my face.the comfort i can only seem to find is in my sister,Sephre.but even her perfect voice cant fit the gaping hole left after losing my love,Fallen.my insanity is uncontrollable.i cant seem to wait for the moment they find out i loved him to.that's all i want.....to be with him.
but with that thought comes the pain i am all to willing to endure for him.but what of the others.how will my sister take my fall from grace?how will jasper handle himself alone?and the new angels?how do they learn what they need to from only one teacher?i have no feeling towards the others but these few hold my heart as much as Fallen holds my wings in his hands.i don't know what to do anymore.
so now i wait,hoping the others don't think this is their fault.i just hope the powers figure out the truth sooner then everyone else.............

chapter 1/section 4 (1 more section before chapter 2)

Jasper:
Why? After all this time, it hits me now. Fallen is gone, the powers and the archangels don’t care. and worst of all, Icarus is depressed at a human suicide rate. She is so catatonic, its pitiful, but I cant worry myself with this. I have souls to worry about, people who have passed on but don’t know where to go. I have demons I have to keep my eyes on. there are so many things I have on my mind ,I cant worry myself with things as simple as emotions. but still I cant seem to get the feeling of losing someone so close to me it feels as though I’ve lost my right arm. but again I cant let that get in my way.
I’ve got new angel protectors I need to train. These new angels are so……..exasperating. they don’t understand, in a battle you need every speck of your original training and experience as you can remember. they don’t understand that you should be able to trust the angel at your right and at your left with your unnatural life. The only three that seem to get that are Justine, Raylo, and Jericho. They understand the feeling of family ,it looks like. They remind me of us ; me, Icarus, and Fallen. I just wish I could fix what ever Fallen did wrong………………….

I need to do something about what happened , and I think I’m going to need these new angels help along the way. Screw authority at the moment, we need to fix what’s happened before Icarus goes completely Fallen on us.


When it happens, it will happen fast. Stay on your toes and wait to hear from Icarus the next time around.

yet to be announced characters..........

the warrior angels



Raylo



Justine



Jericho



Sephre

chapter 1/section 3

Fallen:

my god did that burn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I have wings,and I feel so much better.This tribe is peculiar.Normally,fallen angels disband and never group more then eight.There has to be at least thirty or more people in this place.They operate out of an old abandoned hospital.They still do the work they did while they were in Heaven.The healers help homeless who live in the hospital with them.The guards protect the children and elderly and watch over everyone.And finally,the warriors(yeah ,me too now)go around the world on missions to stop the super-natural and man made experiments from destroying life as you know it.Again ,I only have four years(according to predictions from before).I'm going to need as much of your help as possible.Please,we may be angels but there are other things that will hurt you out there.

When it happens, it will happen fast.Stay on your toes and wait for the next post.
this time,Jasper gets a say so.





And Jasper's pissed..................................

chapter 1/section 2

Brass,on the off chance hes around an area long enough to get a pic

Fallen:
For those keeping tabs on why whereabouts, I’m in the U.S. I been traveling by foot for going on a day now. I feel so lost on earth. This feeling of unknown treason that I have committed has left me undefined. I have no idea what I should do from here on out. Should I look for others like me, or just wander the earth for the time left that it has before judgment day. Oh yeah before this train of thought departs, there’s only about ………………4 years left by the predictions God has made .I need help. What should I do?
I’m sorry I need to be so blunt at the moment, but I must leave.
I have come across a group of fallen angels who say they can give me back my wings and some weapons. The battle is coming…………..

When it happens again,it will happen fast.Stay on your toes and await my next blog.

Fallen

chapter 1/section 1: Falling Through My Thoughts,I Feel Like An Angel In Love..............

its a little earlier then midnight but i'll get on then too.................................

My Trinity..........



Icarus


Jasper



Fallen before falling








Fallen:
Falling. The first and last memory any angel should have. But for some off chance, I remember everything. The Powers removing my wings with the eternal flame. Then the removing of my armor. And finally, them dropping me from heaven. I remember the flashing colors and lights, the ripping feeling of the wind against my scars, and finally the black. I wake up in an ally with something over me, human none the less but something worse. Animal-like in a way but still, somehow, human. Its yellowing teeth bared in ways that showed its absence of leadership, its want to be in control of everything around it. Like how I was. It reared its head to the sky and released a low growl. Almost pitiful in a way. He stomps away and leaps into the black shadow of night. I feel sorry, I understand his feeling. Alone, frightened, and the inability to know what to do next. I reach underneath this tattered garment they gave me before falling. human clothes, to simple and below average standards by angel‘s eyes, even for a fallen angel. I rub my aching shoulders, so use to the weight of my wings.a teenage boy walk into me and yells over his shoulder,
“Watch it ,fucker” .
Before ,I didn’t know why we even tried to protect these beings ,these……soul capsules. It took me centuries to find out why and with that a new friend was made. Well old friend ,and would have been lover.
Icarus understood honor. She lived by the sword and understood what life meant. I’m guessing that’s why she was chosen as an angel. She saw the delicacy of life and its meaning in a battle and prayed to be forgiven .It was at that moment that I saved her, under God’s orders. I walk around this park. I see so much yet so little. Earth is so dim compared to Heaven. People, spirits, demons and……angels. I’m denied my weapons but I can still fight them off if I wanted to. To bad I’m done with fighting. I walked into this library and give a name as close to me as Icarus’, Jasper Hall. My “older brother”.
For the human reading my sole will ,I want you to understand one thing, we are around you. We are your lovers, family members, teachers, homeless and people you didn’t know .But not all of us are good. We can turn on human in an act of defiance. Everything they told you doesn’t exist, exists. Werewolves, fairies, ghosts, they all exist........................
to be continued


When it happens, it will happen fast. Stay on your toes and wait. More truth and other p.o.v’s will be revealed


Fallen

When All Else Fails,Love Is The Best Fall Back Plan............

Ferro (human)

Ferro (werewolf)

For those checking out my blog,I need some feed back.What should your characters name be and what should they be?For those who havent caught on to which character they are or want to know if you can be a character. contact me either using a blogger(or creating one),or send me an email at:
fallenandlost1@gmail.com
the story will start saturday night, 12:00 midnight.
when it happens it will happen fast,stay on your toes,and wait for the next post.

Fallen

For Those Who Never Thought Time Could Be Bottled,I Just Screwed The Cap.............

This is Icarus.

For those new to the blog,I'm just starting on characters,The story will begin soon......................

Andrew,the cupid of earth.Being as small as he is,he has the biggest heart in the world.He took to Fallen as a older brother and is always trying to get him to let him go on missions.He soon learns his own strength and hopes one day to be as strong as Fallen.................
Ferro,the vicious werewolf.He follows instinct more then thought.Just as Fallen was kicked out of heaven,Ferro was removed from his pack for challenging his leaders power.Ferro is a sweet guy to everybody(in a human form) but isnt exactly emotionally stable................
Listy,the beautiful siren.Her beautiful stature and powerful face portray her completly.Fallen has hidden emotions for her(but nowhere near as powerful as his feelings for Icarus).He is lost in his desicion and ,she is pushing so hard its becoming harder to hide what he feels.what happens between them is completely unknown.........
Armada,the forgotten soul.She lost herself in the eternal realm.She still retains her memories and emotions and so she pursues Fallen with a passion.They originaly were together before he was chosen to help protect heaven after his death in battle.She later killed herself at the mention of his death,and still loves him............

When it happens it will happen fast,be on your toes,and wait for the next post.


Fallen

Standing On A Cloud,Watching God's Precious Creatures Torture Each Other With This Game Called Love...............

This is Fallen.
After his fall from Heaven


For those who dont know,this is a blog about..........life.No truely personal items will be realeased(names,settings,and other personal info.)but in its place,a ficticious story with characters so real you'll question the people around you as if they were the characters themselves.To many, this story is an everyday life just translated into mythical terms.For some, it will be an adventure to heaven,hell,and all places inbetween.The truth will be twisted,facts will become lies and the story will unfold before your very eyes.

Charcters will be new everyday because,hey,you meet new people everyday.They will be angels,demons,spirits,and things you only hear about in stories.But for now the first and only characters is Fallen.He has been forcefully removed from heaven and sees every moment as his chance to prove why he should have never been kicked out.He was a warrior angel.He fought demons and spirits lost in time.Then, God banished him for reasons unknown.To him,all he did was fall in love.............

You have Icarus.Icarus has stood by Fallen's side for millenia and more to come.She has had hidden feelings for him,and he for her.She was his friend,lover,and warrior in arms.When he was cast from heaven,she was lost and later forgotten.............
Jasper,Fallen's right hand man.No matter what happened between them,he always listened to Fallen and was always there to help.They were like family.Jasper fought back as the archangels pulled Fallen away and threw him out of grace.Jasper wants revenge and he wants it bad.............
Brass,Fallen's "father".The biggest and strongest of all the fallen angels.Although he is always away on a new mission,he spiritually follows Fallen to make sure hes ok.Fallen always feels so distant to him but knows if he ever needed him,he would be there to help.And right now,he needs him...................
Osaih,the demon herder.Osaih believes that the fallen angels dont deserve to live.He pushes the "Dark One" to get control of them,and kill them.He knows this will never happen ,but still he eggs on a battle between the demons and the fallen.Now he waits.....................

And this is all for now,but soon enough the story will begin.when it happens it wil happen fast,be on your toes and wait for the next post.


Fallen